It has been an emotional day. Full of ups and downs. Good things and hard things. I have decided on a new strategy for life. I don’t know how long this strategy will work, but for right now, every night before I go to bed, I am going to strategize my next day. It is one day at a time literally now. I don’t know how else to process the grief and burnout. I am recovering some from the burnout, but the grief is getting stronger. I wish I could say I have surrendered, but I think I have actually given up. I think there is a vast difference, but I don’t know how to explain it. Perhaps in surrender there is hope, but in giving up there is something more like despair. But I don’t think I would define myself as actually despairing right now. Just many, many other things. Conflicted, tired, burnt out.
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in Him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit. Romans 15