I wish I had profound thoughts, but really I am just really, really tired. I woke up angry. Partly I think because I didn’t want to get out of bed and partly because I think I was just being selfish. I feel like I just need someone to hold me while I cry tonight and I don’t even know why I would be crying. I do feel a bit lonely. I suppose it is good that I am feeling more at night again. I want to go Home. I have this crazy belief we all do – it comes out in our longing for perfect love, joy and peace. I won’t be able to have faith in heaven though, will I?
In the same way, count yourselves dead to sin, but alive to God in Christ Jesus. Therefore do not let sin reign in your mortal body so that you obey its evil desires. Do not offer any part of yourself to sin as an instrument of wickedness, but rather offer yourselves to God as those who have been brought from death to life; and offer every part of yourself to Him as an instrument of righteousness. For sin shall no longer be your master because you are not under the law, but under grace. – Romans 6