If you would have told me five hours ago I would be celebrating right now, I would not have believed you. I spent most of the day being emotionally wiped out and out of gas. I had no get up and go. I knew there were all kinds of things to celebrate, but thinking of them did little to lift my spirits. Thinking about reality in my life just made me think of how much work facing that reality would be, and I wanted to crawl in a hole and hide.
Step study turned that all around for me. God brought me peace a little bit before the ladies came over. I spent some time with Him sorting through my emotions and their causes. I put on some music and prayed. I do not listen to enough music. All in all, I just found peace. An hour and a half of chatting with my favorite women on earth and I am a new person. There is nothing more encouraging than seeing radically transformed lives.
I think I am excited about my life right now. There is no one more surprised about this than myself. I never knew it was possible for me to be excited about my life. I must have been excited at some point in the last few years, but I am not very often. The rest of my life will be hard. Trials and tests will stick around, but I will know Him better and experience Him more. So thankful for who He is.
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” – John 16:33