It is time for bed. I am glad. Probably because I woke up at like 3 am this morning and lay awake for like an hour because it appeared I was too happy to sleep? I don’t know. I think my bedroom had just gotten too hot or something. Who is too happy to sleep? In any case, waking up a few hours later at 5 cranky because I was so exhausted took care of the the happy problem. haha
I did some emotional work today. Made some amends. I have more amends to make yet. I wonder if the list will ever end. I keep realizing new ways I have hurt people, and some of them have been really hurt. I guess my goal is to be repentant regarding my sin without being a people pleaser. I am just thinking about this now. Take ownership for my part, apologize and let the rest go. Yup, sounds like the mission of a celebrating recoverer.
I worked more on forgiveness today. You know, I just want to love people. Not really, I think I just want to worship Him. I did not pray as much today as last week. Well, that is not true. I walked a lot.
Last week, someone gave me a ride because I had a time crunch I could not walk for. Man, but I missed walking. It threw off my whole day. I need time to talk to Jesus. I get that saving commute money and walking! I stay pretty skinny doing that. I suppose all my walking (and praying) keeps me from running (away).
Life is perfection. Which is an absolute lie. This is earth. Life is a complete disaster, full of pain and trials. But Jesus is perfection, and I get to do life with Him.
Remain in me, and I will remain in you. For a branch cannot produce fruit if it is severed from the vine, and you cannot be fruitful unless you remain in me. – John 15:4