Tonight I am filled up with love and joy to the brim. Clear to the top and I am bubbling over. I think I am beginning to live the abundant life Jesus promised to me. My babies are amazing. (One says my name now. That will melt my heart.) The people in my life are amazing.
My conversation with God today was mostly for the Christian leadership in my life and the men in my life. Over the last few days, I have been thinking I would pray for my pastor more if I thought of him more. Then today I started talking to God about my pastor who moved away and kept talking to him about the other men and leaders in my life. I know prayer will change my heart and change the way I act and react to them; sometimes I just do not remember to do it.
This afternoon I was reading in Celebration of Discipline by Richard J. Foster and came across the line, “If we are unwilling to change, we will abandon prayer as a noticeable characteristic of our lives.” That pretty much explains the segment of my life from 3-6 years ago. I listened to Scripture. I journaled. I went to church. I served at church. But I do not remember praying! and boy, was I unwilling to change! What misery.
I started answering the next step study lesson’s questions this morning. It is the last week of spiritual inventory. As nervous as I was to do the inventory, I am equally nervous to be done. After all, steps 5, 6, 7, 8 and 9 all come after step 4. “We made direct amends to such people whenever possible” is coming up. I am a little nervous. But on second thought, it is almost two months away. I will let God take care of that one.
I am so excited to live.
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly. – John 10:10