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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae

Yielding

I have decided I need to have some more time management in my life. I feel like I am going in a lot of different directions in my life. But they are all fun, and they are all good. I just have to organize them. At the same time, taking a sabbath tomorrow is going to be killer hard. I have a lot of writing I would like to have done. But I do know from past history, resting is as important as writing. Maybe I can rest tomorrow and write on Sunday.

It is odd how much it hurts to care for people. No wonder I cannot comprehend God’s love. I cannot even fathom my own – largely because I spent most of my life being too full of myself to love anyone enough to give up anything for them. I am such a different person than I used to be. I could not talk myself out of believing in Jesus anymore; He has changed me too much.

I continued to think about whether I am teachable yet. I must be a little teachable since I have changed a ton in the last few months. But I have a really bad attitude developing about some things. I did discuss it with someone who knows me today. I do think the areas I feel I am becoming unteachable in, I am too out of emotional energy to be able to change anything in them. If I am out of ability to change, how can I be teachable?

I am working on yielding myself to God to be used by Him to bring the good news to others. I cannot blame myself for fighting surrender a little bit right now. There is always sacrifice to be made with becoming a better servant. But God is inviting me to do the super coolest things, which I have dreamed of doing for a very, very long time. I think I am nearly ready to trust Him and let go of my life and just follow. Life cannot get better than this.

Since I am talking so much about Principle 8, it would make sense to close with the Principle 8 verse.

Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven, for in the same way they persecuted the prophets who were before you. – Matthew 5:10-12

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