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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae

Work in Progress

Today was my very first day back in college after almost seven years away. I got my photo taken for my student ID. I do not take good ID photos! To the best of my memory none of them have ever turned out well. But this time was going to be a different story. I went to the bathroom and primped my hair. I checked my smile. I took a deep breath. I waited in line for 40 minutes…. “Perfect!” said the lady gazing at the computer screen as she snapped the photo. Excitement filled me. I gathered my things. She printed my ID. I took it from her hands. I looked down. I silently gasped in horror, “WHAT is your definition of perfect?!” I smiled thank you. I went on my way.

Ah, some things never change; oh, but some things do!

I thought I had had a genuine breakthrough last night when I read over the material on being stuck. I think I did. I am in much higher spirits today. But then I am a bit nerdy, and it was my first day back in school. How could I not be excited tonight? I survived going over a syllabus! Woohoo! Higher spirits do not necessarily mean a breakthrough, but I am ready for a break from wanting to quit all day everyday! I am going to celebrate this!

Truly I am rejoicing over learning to trust. It is really hard for me to do so. Within the last three or four months, I have even wondered if I really trust my best friends. But I am growing. I am willing to start risking. I wonder if I could even learn to trust without risking if I wanted to? Trusting God is sort of the opposite of a risk, yet in the moment it can feel very much like a risk to me. With people, it is a risk!

I have been told if I learn to put my full confidence in God and get all my worth and value from Him (steps and principles 2 & 3), then even when people hurt me, I will not be devastated. I will be able to love them instead.

Hmmm. I wonder where they heard that?

“You have heard the law that says, ‘Love your neighbor, and hate your enemy. But I say, love your enemies! Pray for those who persecute you! In that way, you will be acting as true children of your Father in heaven. For he gives his sunlight to both the evil and the good, and he sends rain on the just and the unjust alike. If you love only those who love you, what reward is there for that? Even corrupt tax collectors do that much. If you are kind only to your friends, how are you different from anyone else? Even pagans do that. But you are to be perfect, even as your Father in heaven is perfect.” Jesus – Matthew 5:43-48


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