A side effect of MMR vaccine is aching and painful joints. I had that this morning as I sat in a coffee shop trying my best to focus on research and data entry. I was entirely exhausted. I always find it ironic when I am surrounded by so much caffeine and exhausted. It apparently only helps when it is on the inside. As I sat there thoroughly drained, I thought of the verse in Isaiah where it says “They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.” I always wishfully think someday I will just have loads of energy on account of that verse. It’s a promise, right?
At some point in the last week, it first crossed my mind that perhaps if I want to run and not be weary, I will have to train for running. If I want to walk and not faint, I will have to eat a lot and practice walking. I am just thinking about the “soaring on wings like eagles” part now. I suppose I might start hang gliding?
I have always imagined this verse would come alive someday for me. I would step into never being tired. I would never walk down the street and wishfully glance at a bus or a car or a train. I would never be burnt out on a ministry again. I would never want to pull out my hair over a relationship. Someday, this verse was bound to come to pass in my life.
And I am embarrassed to admit this, even to myself, but I am quite sure I thought it would come to pass in the way described above when I had finally figured out the right formula for Christian living. When I knew enough Scripture and when I sacrificed enough time, talents or treasures, then I would be rewarded with the promise in this verse. I just needed to figure out the right formula for God to fulfill this in my life.
Over the last half year, I have turned from a runner into a walker and from a weight lifter into a really inconsistent yogi, I have noticed it takes a great deal more work for me to run now than it did six months ago. I get tired a whole lot quicker. I just came home and my roommate asked me if I had been running. No, just walked up the stairs. It is time for training.
I started to compare spiritual walking and physical running in my head as I walked today. I went to school for fitness, so I know about running. What I know about running is that the interval runner (short and fast intervals of walking/running or different speeds of running) will always out run the steady state runner who never changes speeds and never rests. All things being equal, by resting during a run, one will run farther faster. Period.
So by resting during life, I can do more in life? Fantastic. I will finish this quickly and sleep then.
Otherwise, it was mostly a quiet day in the recovery world. Feeling insecure as I write this tonight, so I am going to go spend some time with my Father. Get some food and rest, so I can run tomorrow.
But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint. – Isaiah 40:31
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. 2We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith.a Because of the joyb awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated in the place of honor beside God’s throne. – Hebrews 12:1-2
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