Weakness

Today was another good day being an extrovert. I have to say I like being an extrovert. Really, I just like being alive. ‘Tis a bit of a weird life, but I am learning to like being alive. I struggled in the morning wanting to go and see people. I do still struggle with church and church people. I am just so much more comfortable in any other context even if the “church people” are around me in that context.

I had a good time in prayer and with God today. I guess this last round of counseling and recently being called joyless woke up some charisma in me. It sure is nice to be super awake and lively when I am praying. :) I love to talk to God like He is my friend, but some days it seems more important to talk to Him like He is the King of the universe. He is all powerful. My friends aren’t.

I do enjoy the friend thing though. It has really helped me to realize God is for me not against me. Friends are for me. Except bad friends, they are against me.

Today God encouraged me that this is indeed the beginning not the end. It is a pretty cool thing to be on the beginning of something. Also it was a just consistent reminder from beginning to end that His power is made perfect in my weakness. When I think I will never be strong enough to love these people, He whispers in my heart that His power is made perfect in my weakness. It seems unfathomable to be used by God in such a way. It all goes back to my thought from a couple weeks ago. My greatest strength will be the knowledge of my weakness.

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. – 2 Corinthians 12:9