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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae

Wanting to run

I am struggling with cynicism. I did come to a deeper understanding of the literal meaning of “Blessed are those who are persecuted because of righteousness” today. That is good since I am planning on writing about it in six months. I realize I have an article due on disappointment in relationships on the 15th. I feel like it might be wise to bunt this to next month… Cynicism and dealing with disappointment in relationships at one time? Seems like an opportunity to just be cynical.

I won a battle today for a short time. I think I may have to rearrange my time with God. I am always super groggy in the morning and don’t get His Word deep down into me until like 11 for the first time. I don’t know how to do it when I first wake up though. My brain doesn’t go there even if I try to memorize at that time. It doesn’t go into the feeling part of me. Only the intellectual part. I don’t find knowing things in my head all that helpful. I don’t find it helpful at all actually.

Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? Yet not one of them will fall to the ground outside your Father’s care. And even the very hairs of your head are all numbered; so don’t be afraid. You are worth more than many sparrows. Matthew 10


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