What a ridiculously hard week! I need a break and a nap. Good thing I am about to get one. I decided today that character change is more fun in other people than myself. At the end of last year, I looked forward to this year. I wish I looked forward to it now. Now all I do is pull up my nose. Do I have to? I am trying to re-balance myself – talking to as many of my mentors as possible to have them point me back to God. This evening I wrote out a list of all the things God did in my life in 2015. I hoped it would give me the energy to want to keep starting 2016. Not so much. It just made me cry and realize how very hard 2015 was. No wonder I am so tired. But I did list out every relationship I could think of that was created in 2015. It made it so very, very close to worth it. I need to keep pressing on! I don’t know how. I have a hard time remembering why, but I think I must continue.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior; – Isaiah 43:2-3
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