What does a person thinking about recovery need to know about my day? Well, I had loads of fun. Loads and loads of fun. I could not have had fun if it was not for my CR brothers and sisters. I was surrounded by my CR family, so they know 99% of what there is to know about me so I did not have to hide much there.
I danced a lot. I ate a lot. I drank a lot. I thought I think I will just elope a lot. (Not on account of being anti-wedding, just on account of the extreme culture clashes in my life that would come together for a wedding and all that touchy-feely stuff.) I sort of like the touchy-feely stuff now though. I think I am starting to love the touchy-feely stuff. Oh boy.
I did have trouble getting mind over matter before the wedding, but once I was on the way with my friends I was okay because I did not have to focus on what was happening. For about 15-20 minutes of the reception, one of my friends asked me if I was okay a lot. I was starting to withdraw and think too hard and become pensive. But when the next round of dancing came up, I just danced all those issues away!
I also tried to make it a point to stay present in the moment at the wedding. Not ignore what was happening or that I had issues to overcome. I did not want to just stuff all the negative, all my fears and insecurities, but I wanted to work them out.
I had lots of fun. It was a true joy to see the bride and groom jump over the broomstick. Now it is time for bed. Love my life.
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. – Jeremiah 29:11