I love Jesus. Today was not as good as yesterday. I woke up annoyed because of a really bizarre dream; but hey, I don’t think I have had a nightmare since the last time I complained to you about them. Just confessing to having them seems to take them away sometimes. I will never be cured this side of heaven, but it is so nice to not only be joyful but be happy. I was happy again this morning, teasing and joking with the kids I babysit. Do you know how nice it is too be happy? Cheerful? Just excited to be alive?
Today I thought about a line from a CR testimony I heard recently. It went something like this, “It seemed to me the 12 steps were all about submission to God. Pray to God for submission, submit to God, take the step.” That’s why they work. That is why I love them. I have an abundant life, people. Absolutely abundant.
I want to learn to communicate in better ways though. I yet have to find a real explanation for why I ended up in Jersey. I am here because it was the only place on the map I had peace researching when I left the last place I lived. That included California, Texas, Ohio, and anywhere else I might have landed up. I used to have a standard answer for this that wouldn’t freak people out who would think I was nuts for giving the other explanation. There is a time and place to bring God that far into the conversation. At least that is my view. It is pry the wrong view.
Tonight someone I never met before kept asking questions to the point of me having to say, “Well, I hit rock bottom in NYC and had to move to CA with my grandparents to get back on my feet.” Sorry, you’re the one who keeps asking me all these questions. What do you want me to say?
God is faithful. That is definitely my favorite part about Him! Though earlier today I told someone my favorite thing about Him was that He was a Redeemer. I might have many favorite things, which is probably an oxymoron. Now I am off to bed because class tomorrow comes early.
But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ. – I Corinthians 15:57
For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. – John 3:16