I have only ever forgotten to journal two days in the life of this blog (as far as I am aware). Yesterday and one day about two and a half years ago. Yesterday was a truly awful day. I did not do well at all. By the end of the day I balanced out considerably. It felt like one of my friends gave me my voice back yesterday afternoon. Now if I can manage not to use it to viciously attack.
Today was much better than yesterday, but I am still struggling. I am confused, wounded and disillusioned. At the same time it is nice to finally be seeing reality. At least my counselor is glad of that. Those are really weird statements to put next to each other. Anyway, my counselor thinks I am finally hitting reality, so I am glad of that.
I just poured out my heart for an hour and a half on the phone to a friend. I feel so much better, but my voice is actually hoarse! I think that is kind of funny. Her parting words were to “walk with God” not before Him or behind, not in the future or the past but with Him. So, that shall be what I meditate on tomorrow.
The God of peace will soon crush satan under your feet. Romans 16
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