“Against all hope Abraham in hope believed and so became the father of many nations.” I wonder what Laura will do when she believes against all hope? I think I know because I think the book of Romans tells me.
When I look at myself and my circumstances, when I look at the evidence in my life, it seems that it is against all hope that certain parts of my life and mind will ever look like Jesus. It seems against all hope that there is any hope for me to love with His love in an entirely selfless way. Even in the situations where I desperately want to surrender my will to His and love exactly as He loves, again and again and again I choose myself over others. I keep doing the wrong thing over and over again.
Against all hope, Laura believed she would become like Jesus because Jesus told her so.
Recently I told a friend that if God could heal a certain part of my life, then that would be proof that He was actually God. The good news is that God seemed to say from heaven, or perhaps from right beside me, “Challenge accepted.” Great things have been happening in that area of my life.
Against all hope…
“But if Christ is in you, then even though your mortal body is subject to death because of sin, the Spirit gives life because of righteousness. And if the Spirit of Him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, He who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies because of His Spirit who lives in you.”
So says the Apostle Paul. It was easier to believe that when I first studied it a year ago. It gave me such courage. These days when I think about these verses, I look at the circumstances in my life and the mortal body that I have and the things that this mortal body thinks and does. Then I realize that such a promise must come “against all hope” because there is nothing in this mortal body, except His Spirit, that indicates there is hope for it to love the way Christ loves.
I so want to be free to love freely! I keep getting caught up in my ego and the other parts of my wounded brain. Trauma really does a number on one’s brain. It isn’t an excuse for how one acts and what one says; but it is a reason that when I look at my mortal body, I realize that there is no hope outside of His Spirit in me. I am so grateful for His Spirit in me.
Grace seems so foreign to me right now. It seems a theologically pat answer to a real problem. It seems entirely intangible, yet every day I walk in it. Every day I reap its benefits. And often I wonder, “but how could something so good actually be true? And is this mortal body really coming to life?” It seems so hard to fathom.
I look at my life ten years ago, or even a year ago, and I know that I have changed dramatically. But there is so much changing that still needs to take place. It is entirely and 100% overwhelming. Jesus has a great track record in my life; yet when I look at my mortal body, I can’t help but think that believing in change is believing against all hope.
I am so grateful for the righteousness of Jesus. I am so grateful that I am being chiseled into His likeness. I am so grateful that someday I will not have this mortal body, but I will live in absolute perfection.
Against all hope, Laura in hope believed, and so was transformed into the likeness of Christ.
What transformation seems impossible in your life? Do you have any areas of your life where you would be grateful if God accepted a challenge to change them? Will you believe what the “evidence” of your mortal body or what God tells you?