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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae


I am really overwhelmed right now. I had a quite amazing day. I am being stretched to new limits. You know God keeps having these conversations with me about things and my life keeps going in the general direction it seemed like it would. But then when it does go in that direction, I tend to freak out just a little. I mean it is all very nice in a hypothetical future one might live to see; but when it becomes a current reality, I get a little “God, help me now!”-ish. I start thinking things like, “Wait! This is going to happen?” Yes, Laura, you knew that. Take a chill pill. Or three.

I wrote 3,400 words today. I thought my brain was going to break. I am on my 131st single-spaced page right now. I think the longest thing I have written was like 18 single-spaced pages. I have sort of exceeded my level of experience. It is a lot of fun, but there sure gets to be a long story line. Hopefully a very pleasant one. I have noticed I am not very good at sticking to an outline. I know the last scene, and the point of the second to last scene in the book. The journey there just keeps getting changed.

I am having a hard time not wanting to really push myself. I would love to finish in two weeks. The reality of that might just bust my brain in two. I am so excited to finish. Partly because I just want to know what happens myself. I really honestly have almost no idea. At some point my characters seem to have gotten their own freewill. I know, impossible, yet true.

Anyway, I know I was supposed to tell you something about my life. I cannot remember what, but I am sure it was deep and insightful and you are missing out.

I will say I am at the amends step again. Step 8 is making my list. Which if I put the first names of everyone on both sides of my list in the CR step study book, it doesn’t really fit in my book. Step 9 is working on it. It is nice that God is bringing various conversations up naturally. One must be intentional about making amends, but the opportunities have been readily available. It is good to be free. My God is a mighty God.

Still celebrating that God is a God of joy. Definitely changing the way I interact with my day. Also I am still majorly capitalizing on the “Jesus dying so I could spend as much time with God as I want” revelation from last week.

“As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love. I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. This is my command: Love each other.” – John 15:9-17


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