Today was interesting. I had counseling and was able to work on my revelations from the last week. I feel more stable than I have in a long time. I think the added time with God that I gave myself for my birthday is beginning to help. Every evening after my evening quiet time, I feel more refreshed than before – like I am beginning to catch up on spiritual and emotional refreshment.
The spiritual war is continuing in my life. I have decided the modern version to David’s words to Goliath might be “You come against me with culture, materialism and religion, but I come against you in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ.” I am searching for freedom. I am fighting for it!
My counselor thought I should be kinder to myself. She thinks the issues from my birthday do not really control me so much as affect me. She thought this was probably the case because the objects which I fear are not changing the decisions I am making, but simply affecting my emotions. It seemed fair enough of an assessment to me, except that I would like not to have my emotions affected so much. It feels like control to have so much of my peace and quiet stolen by anger and resentment.
There is still enough spiritual warfare going on in my life that it seems like I can hear the swords clashing midair.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. – 2 Corinthians 12:9
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