Well, today was an interesting day. Funny I should say so because I can’t remember why. It was mostly pretty quiet. I had a couple wonderful conversations with friends. I sweat a lot. I realized I was in a wonderful place in regards to my addictions because I am making the right steps. I am seeking wise counsel, spending time with God and living in community. Those things will all make my life much better and this new thing much easier to beat. Though honestly the new thing is really very, very old. I have just realized it recently.
Perhaps you think it funny that I call everything addiction. I think it a bit odd myself, but I know how to beat addictions. I have done that many times. I don’t know how to beat other things. I could just call everything idols, habitual sins, patterns of disconnection or brokenness. Those words would also all work, but addiction is the one I most understand in my little world.
When I understand something in my life is an addiction, then I know what to do. All I have to do is stop. Stopping isn’t easy. I know how it feels. It hurts really, really badly. I am not a fan of how much it hurts, but I know quitting is always filled with great reward. I know following God’s recipe for a good life always has much better results than following my own plan.
I think it is this knowledge that makes me able to face the reality of this new old thing. It will hurt, but that is okay. The pain will be temporary, but the reward eternal.
Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves. Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer. Share with the Lord’s people who are in need; practice hospitality. Romans 12
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