Today was pretty emotional. I was all over the place. I was high. I was low. I was crying. I was laughing. I was emotionally exhausted. I was filled to the brim. Step study and the amazing women there will definitely fill me up. I feel like I am entirely in unknown waters. I don’t know what this next phase of God financially supporting me will look like. I know He will. I doubted it today.
Not as much as I used to, but something happened that made me oh-so aware I am unable to take care of myself. Someone gave me a gift which is both something I need and couldn’t afford to buy myself. I learned something about my human nature. I found it more painful in the moment to accept the gift than live in pain as a result of not accepting the gift. I am not good at accepting grace.
I could write for hours if there was any hope of processing this tonight, but I wake up bright and early tomorrow morning to leave on the first vacation I have been on in almost a year. Hurray!!
Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has ascended into heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin. Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need. – Hebrews 4:14-16