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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae

Pressing on

Let’s start with the positive! I finished the first half of the second draft of my novel today. That is a cheerful thought. I do get pretty overwhelmed in the writing and editing though. A lot of thinking. It also feels like I spend hours with the same people everyday when in fact I am mostly alone (with a dog since I am dog sitting).

I am struggling to believe in God’s promises tonight. I do not mind continuing to walk the direction He has asked me to walk, but it does not feel like there is going to be any results to anything.

Sometimes I just have to remember that what I do has helped someone at some point. I think that is a codependent thought, but I am not sure. In any case, I would like to be much more hopeful again. Am I complaining right now? I am not supposed to complain.

My life is technically really good. I really am living the dream. How many people get to do that?

Also I have had fewer issues with bitterness and anger this week. I have been able to let go of a lot of things I was holding on to. Even in my lack of hope and faith, I am not really spiteful. I am sad, but not spiteful. I am learning how to do my part and let the rest go. I am praying a lot about what my part is in certain relationships. I am not entirely thrilled about what God is showing me. But at least I know what I am responsible for. I can let the rest go. I am tired. I am going to quit using bad grammar now and go to bed. :)

“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” – Jeremiah 29:11

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