I am trying to give over my problems to God. One of the questions for step group was really simple last week. What is a major concern in your life? “Time management”. What is preventing you from handing it over to God? “It never occurred to me.” I think I don’t know how to give it over to God. I think I used to know, but I am more used to quitting things for God than letting Him manage things. That is my excuse for right now anyway.
I have so incredibly much to be grateful for. Last night I kept telling someone over and over how I couldn’t believe I had made it to where I am right now. I never knew this was possible for me. I thought I was too broken to be this healed. I am glad God’s plans for me are bigger than my own. Mine turned out to be really small.
I am almost two years sober. I am so excited. I am so excited to celebrate. God is so good. He knew what I needed long before I did.
I have been watching cheesy Christmas movies. They make me happy, too.
My friend who told me life keeps getting better in recovery was right. Life keeps getting better. Following Jesus is awesome!
Today I had a good time of repentance. I think I realized the extent of the damage I have done to myself and those around me in regards to my sexuality and addiction. Well, the extent I am aware of so far. I am sure I have much more to learn.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” – Jeremiah 29:11
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