About 11:30 this morning I decided to take the day off. I am exhausted and I need the rest. So I did so. I took the day off and worked in digital marketing for two hours, writing for two hours, researched publishing for one hour, cleaned my apartment for an hour and a half, and met with sponsees or led CR for three hours. That, my friends, is a day off! Which is why I am considering figuring out a way to sleep more and do less. In spite of my two hour nap this afternoon, I am exhausted!
I am coming more to a grip with my eating problem. I am mad about it. I do not want to have to deal with it. I do not want to have to plan and take the time to make food. Oh, I think I am too busy; but I have nothing I want to quit. And in some ways, nothing I can quit. Mostly I am just trying to give myself leniency on the deadlines I have created in my life. No reason to be in a hurry.
I had really, really good time with God in my quiet time today. I was angry this morning. For some reason, like I think I said yesterday, I have un-forgiven things I thought I already forgave. But I really was able to just sit quietly with God and let Him cleanse my heart. I may have been quieter and more at peace than I have ever been. The conversation with God seemed to be in my heart, not my head. Most days it is in my head – or at least my head and heart. It was so quiet. I had this picture He was scraping the gunk out of my heart from the last few years. I thought about everything that has happened this year. My life is truly moving faster than I can imagine going! I need to give myself room to rest.
I am glad I am focusing a bit more on resting. His grace will always be enough.
I am leaving you with a gift–peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don’t be troubled or afraid. – John 14:27