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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae

Overflowing

It is a happy day. I am happy. I do believe I am even excited to live. I have so much to be thankful for. I know I must be thankful more often, but this afternoon I had the most incredible, overwhelming sense of thankfulness. I have a home, and I have friends who love me. What more could I ask for? I have a God, who is everything to me. On the days when I am not so caught up looking down at my earthly problems, I think of how incredibly awesome it is to be loved and cared about by the God of the universe. A Being more awe-inspiring than anything I can ever imagine.

It appears I can choose not to become bitter and angry. It appears I can choose to walk in freedom. It will take breaking many more habits; but it seems when I feel powerless, I do in fact respond in anger. I am powerless to change almost everything in my life. I am even powerless to change myself. I need my God for that, too. I am a pretty big fan of God.

Tonight as I walked down the street I thought how there could not possibly be anyone else in the world happier than I was in that very moment. I am so thankful I am so happy now. I never expected to be so grateful and filled with joy and contented right now. I look around my little apartment, and I cannot fathom how rich I am. When did I become a thankful person??

I saw my counselor this morning. I was reminded there how I said a few weeks/months ago that I would praise Him in the storm. The storm in my life is quieter than it used to be. I just want to learn how to be content with myself and with the choices I make. I have spent a great deal of time resenting my own decisions to sacrifice. Yes, God has radically changed my heart in the midst of radical sacrifice, but I want to be joyful as I take all I have and give it to the poor!

My heart is confident in you, O God; no wonder I can sing your praises with all my heart! – Psalm 108:1

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