Wow! What a crazy day! I went from crazy upset this morning to so blessed at CR this afternoon. Then I have an evening that has stimulated my brain on every level and I have intellectual things to try to quit thinking about as I go to bed. I hate it when new things come into my life to think about at 9 pm!
I am still in the midst of having to surrender to God. I wish it was easier for me to do. Taking step one is hard. I keep sort of doing it and then getting back on my throne and trying to be God. I go back and forth a bit on it. I am just so scared of losing control of what I am doing. Truth is my live has been out of my control with following Jesus in a “way over my head” way for years. But I have gotten almost comfortable at this level. Well, not really, but I am more comfortable at it then at any other level I have been at!
Then the Lord spoke to Job out of the storm. He said:
“Who is this that obscures my plans with words without knowledge? Brace yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer me. “Where were you when I laid the earth’s foundation? Tell me, if you understand. Who marked off its dimensions? Surely you know! Who stretched a measuring line across it? On what were its footings set, or who laid its cornerstone— while the morning stars sang together and all the angelsa shouted for joy? – Job 38:1-7