When I left work today, I left out a big contented sigh and thought, “Now I can die happy.” I am so glad I have jobs that leave me feeling that way. For some reason, walking home exhausted me and I can now barely move.
Step 10 may be annoying me, but it has its benefits. Since coming back from Mexico, I have noticed a few bad habits coming back into my life. I am putting on noise a lot again. I am interrupting people more frequently than I did for awhile. I have watched as much TV in the last week as I had been in a month. I almost watched a show before blogging tonight. Then I reasoned if I did I would have to note I fell into this temptation. I didn’t feel like having to make any confessions, so I ate my ice cream in peace and quiet. It is not that I think watching TV is a sin or anything. I just happen to know it drains me of energy and does not give any at all to me, so I should not watch it – particularly when I am tired.
I also nearly started creating a list of brainstorming twice today and avoided the temptation. That is what Thursday is for. Wednesday is for babysitting. It felt good to choose not to think.
I also met with my pastor this morning. I didn’t take a deep breathe and brace myself before walking into the office. I braced myself for an entire half block before the office. After the first two minutes or so of the meeting, all fear and nerves left me and it was okay. This time I am not changing my answer tomorrow. God is really, really, really good. I expect I will still have a fear factor next week; but hey, onward and upward!
In fact, I can’t believe how this community I am a part of has embraced me. Sometimes I think there is something wrong with these people because I did not know love like this existed on this side of heaven.
“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.” – John 13:34-35
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