I woke up struggling with fear this morning. Fear over a lot of things. I didn’t know exactly what my task for the day was yet. I do now. I am not super excited about my task for the day. In other words, I don’t really want to. If I was a procrastinator, I wouldn’t do it. But instead in a few minutes, I will submit and start doing it. The task make me sad; but if I want to follow Jesus, then some things have to be done whether they make me sad or not. After all, He didn’t promise me a fun life of following Him; He promised me an abundant life. He didn’t say it would be easy; He said His true disciples would carry their cross.
Last night I dreamt I was in one of the houses I was raised in. I/we (I have no memory of who was with me) were being persecuted by Roman soldiers and were about to get eaten by a black panther. I woke up so sad to find out I wasn’t just about to get eaten by a black panther for the sake of Jesus. Instead I was going to have to face more future on earth. Oh well, if you are going to get eaten by something, a black panther would be a beautiful creature to do it.
Now I will quit avoiding the task at hand and do it. After all, I do want to be completely and entirely free.
As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in His love. I have told you this, so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. John 15