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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae

No weeping

I am a little bit frustrated today. I am not quite sure why. Well, I know a little bit of the reason. I don’t really feel like talking about it. I struggled a little with bitterness also – not until late this afternoon though. I am not quite sure why. I have had such a good week. It was annoying to have to fight it. I feel like fighting some people instead of loving them. I hate that feeling. I feel like reading a book. I wonder if I have one single fun book to read in my entire apartment. Hmmm.

Ugh, I am just sad right now. I don’t know why. I shouldn’t be. I have a wonderful life. I really, really do. Someone said something today that used to trap me into helplessness and instead I responded with words. I became so filled with joy and amusement also. I love how God is always changing me from the inside out.

I am home. I don’t know quite why I am as much at home as I am, but I am so home. I walk the streets just being so thankful this is my home. I am so grateful God brought me here. He is so good. His goodness is revealed in the gospel and this is just a small token of His kindness.

I love this place, and I love these people. I hope I never have to leave; but if I do, I am going to get to spend eternity with them. But I am sure when I leave, I will cry my eyes out anyway.

I am just sitting here thinking how amazing my life is. You know what? I never have to die. I am going to live forever. While I am on earth, my life is going to just keep getting better. Then someday my flesh is going to die completely, I will be given a new body, and life will be pure ecstasy forever. It will be like dying and going to heaven. :) No weeping. No doubt. No fear. No pain.

Like a bride waiting for a groom, we’ll be the church waiting for You…

You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand. – Psalm 16:11


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