I love my job. I love my life. I love some of the songs of a new singer I have been introduced to. One of the lines is “We are changed in Your presence.” Yes, we are! Celebrate Recovery would be nothing to me if I had not spent time in His presence just soaking Him in. Just opening up myself to hear from Him.
I have been thinking recently about God showing me all my scars and how unhealthy and dirty they were. That was in January, February or March or something. Just seeing a vision of God trying to wrap my dirty, filthy wounds with bandages, and I kept pleading with Him not to do so because if we bandaged such wounds, I would become infected and die. They needed to be cleaned. As I talked to God about it, He showed me that CR was cleaning the wounds, so they could heal properly. It does. I am blessed beyond measure. I wonder what my wounds look like now. Maybe someday soon I will sit in His presence and ask Him to show them to me again, so I know.
Right now, I am going to continue stepping out of denial. We had our very first lesson in step study tonight. It was truly amazing and humbling to continue to tell the truth about the truth God is revealing to me about my past and my present. Like that old version of the Bible that says God transforms us from glory to glory. God is abundantly merciful.
I have started to have the sweetest times with Jesus after blogging. I love that He is giving me this time of absolute spiritual peace to rest from my crazy life. I am sane and in my right mind, sitting at the feet of Jesus. There is no place I would rather be. Than next to Him, sitting next to me.
When Jesus had stepped out on land, there met him a man from the city who had demons. For a long time he had worn no clothes, and he had not lived in a house but among the tombs. …. (For many a time it [the unclean spirits] had seized him. He was kept under guard and bound with chains and shackles, but he would break the bonds and be driven by the demon into the desert.) …Then the demons came out of the man … Then people went out to see what had happened, and they came to Jesus and found the man from whom the demons had gone, sitting at the feet of Jesus, clothed and in his right mind, and they were afraid. …. The man from whom the demons had gone begged that he might be with him, but Jesus sent him away, saying, “Return to your home, and declare how much God has done for you.” And he went away, proclaiming throughout the whole city how much Jesus had done for him. – Luke 8:26-39
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