Today was supposed to be a day of sleep. I slept for a one hour nap, and it was kind of bad sleep. I ended up dreaming. But the good news is that this morning I woke up refreshed at 6:30. I have had a quite pleasant day. I have recognized another truth about my underlying emotions. Things that are making it hard to be here. Not here physically. I don’t even know why I said that. I am so spacey today that I am unable to finish sentences to myself. Telling stories to other people is really difficult. I did alright until I took my nap, and then I went flaky.
What I recognized today about the emotion I am processing is healthy. It is something I cannot share here. It is something I am glad I recognize about reality, but it is a weird reality to have. Not one that is altogether pleasant from a temporal standpoint. I must grieve once again, but it is better to grieve than to repress grief and suffer it bleeding into all areas of my life.
Tomorrow is Easter. I can’t wait. If God is for us, who can be against us? I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future… I love that that verse doesn’t include the past. My current present is good, but I must grieve what I have lost. I will bring it to Jesus and offer it to Him.
In this past week I recognize that one more person has been forgiven by me. To God be the glory.
I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present or the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. – Romans 8:38-39