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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae

New beginnings

I am sad tonight. Saying it, or rather writing it, makes me smile. My life is so full of blessings right now. I am realizing deep truths about myself and my life that I never knew before. About a week ago, maybe almost two weeks ago, I don’t remember for sure when, I started to give myself permission to grieve for five minutes a day about one particular thing in my life. In the last day or so I have thought of another thing I should grieve. Grieving is good. It is much better than pretending the pain doesn’t exist, and I have deep pain in my life. Separation causes deep pain. It is one of the things that makes God grieve as well. I don’t have to run away from grieving things that make God sad. The right thing for me to do is cry when God cries, and I believe God cries about broken relationships. He doesn’t like separation. That is why He sent Jesus.

A dam of emotion is breaking in my life. Tonight I wanted to cry when I was in step group again. I showed more emotion today with my counselor than I think I ever have. I am ready to cry it out, so for five minutes a day I am going to bring my grief to God and do just that. No, that isn’t for very long; but it is a manageable amount of time. I won’t be overcome by my emotion that way.

I am fully convinced that what I need is a great deal of humility. On my way home tonight, I was thinking that I need to write something that I can hashtag #HumilityOnSteroids. That is what I need write now.

The last verse I memorized in Romans is bound to really cheer us both up. Did you know Phlegon is said Flea Gone – like flea be gone! I love it.

Greet Asyncritus, Phlegon, Hermes, Patrobas, Hermas and the other brothers and sisters with them. Romans 16

Truly uplifting, and taken in context of the other 400 or so verses in Romans, it is.

Through Him we received grace and apostleship to call all the Gentiles to the obedience that comes from faith for His name’s sake. And you also, are among those Gentiles who called to belong to Jesus Christ. Romans 1


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