I had a really good day, in which I even spontaneously decided to have fun for no reason. That does not happen very often for me. My counselor and I have been talking about it. Anyway we were before she went back to all the hard stuff. I do not know why, but she likes to talk about hard things. I am kind of glad because it is really helping.
I got a lot of everything except writing done today. Hopefully, next week will be a different story. But back to having fun. It is nice to have the freedom to spontaneously have fun and connect with my friends. It is really, really nice to have such a great community of people around me. I love this place.
I am still really amazed by how different I am than I was five years ago. For most of my life I didn’t even know I was lonely. I thought was strong and independent. Really strong and independent. I was really isolated and alone back then. Then I went through a period of time where I felt really alone. I think it was because I just was stepping out of denial about how I had felt most of my life. I began feeling the feelings I was stuffing with my habits.
Anyway, I am super happy I am not alone or feeling lonely these days. I like all my people. I even love a great many of them! I am glad I never have to walk alone again.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” – Jeremiah 29:11