Okay, I just wrote a whole entry and lost it. I don’t have time to write a whole entry again. I will say this I was disappointed today. I was disappointed at God, so I told Him so. A little hesitantly, but I figured since He already knew I was disappointed I might as well be truthful.
I noticed I was disappointed about an hour after I was having the conversation with God about it. As I walked, I thought about how I felt beyond the feelings of disappointment. I felt very, very alive. I even became excited I was disappointed because being disappointed meant I had been expecting something. For so much of my life I have been afraid of being excited because I didn’t want to be disappointed. I finally get excited, get disappointed, and oddly enough my emotional reaction to the disappointment is excitement. Who knew?
Continuing the conversation with God about feeling poor. Still struggling today.
And Jesus said to him, “Foxes have holes, and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head.” Matthew 8:20