I feel very, very grounded today. Last night after journaling, as I prepared for bed, I had a few realizations about things I was majorly afraid of. Once I knew the fears I was facing about my present and future, everything became easier. At least I knew what I was facing. Now I know what I need to learn to trust God with. I am ending a lot of sentences with prepositions tonight. Sorry. There is a no editing rule on my daily posts. :) You are just going to have to read it.
I once again had several full meals today. Sometimes it is the little things that matter. Today I faced one of my greater fears. I had no warning for it. No preparation. It was just there. It hurt. I realized sometimes I have to trust that God’s plan is bigger than mine. He can see more. I need to trust His way is better. As I had quiet time before my fear (okay, I had a small warning but no warning before today), I realized God was pry just offering me more freedom. By facing this fear, I could have more freedom. It is for freedom Christ has set me free. It makes sense to me.
Then I started the final edit of my novel. That was really freeing, too. Two things today that freed and grounded me. I serve a mighty God.
Life is really quite awesome.
(And I do edit things if I notice I said something as off as can’t instead of can, but not unless I said something that is untrue. I would never get to bed else because I would be too busy wondering if I really wanted to share things instead of posting and taking a well-earned nap.)
Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will find it. What good will it be for someone to gain the whole world, yet forfeit their soul? Or what can anyone give in exchange for their soul? For the Son of Man is going to come in his Father’s glory with his angels, and then he will reward each person according to what they have done. – Matthew 16:24-27