I am not quite sure what is happening to me, but I think it is something good but it is the hardest thing I have ever done and I don’t really like the process that much. You know following Jesus is pretty awesome, but it sure is hard. He didn’t tell me to take up my cross for nothing! It sure doesn’t feel like an easy thing anyway. I wonder if I will ever die to myself with joy. I don’t like this dying process. I definitely don’t. I wanted to go Home so badly today. Thinking about it makes me want to go Home again. I really don’t understand why earthlings love earth so much.
“Don’t let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and trust also in me. There is more than enough room in my Father’s home. If this were not so, would I have told you that I am going to prepare a place for you? When everything is ready, I will come and get you, so that you will always be with me where I am. And you know the way to where I am going.” – John 14:1-4