Honestly, I do not feel like talking about it. I could hereby name this day The Day Laura’s Desire to be Transparent Died. Even I will not celebrate it, but it would be accurate. Actually, it is not so much transparency I am struggling with right now as the desire to continuously repeat step 10 “We continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong, promptly admitted it.” The redundancy of daily reflection is getting to me.
Nothing happened and a lot happened today. Some of my fear over what appears to be God’s accelerated growth plan for me this summer has broken. “Let go and let God” someone said to me. It did not take an immense amount of time for me to realize that was sort of my only option. I am in entirely too far over my head to even begin to control this. So why try to control it at all?
There were a few interesting questions in non-CR small group tonight. Have you ever tried to jump the fence into the sheepfold instead of coming in God’s way through the door? I answered with general areas of my life. Join me at CR for painful details.
The other one was: Is there any area of your life where you are waiting for an answer from God? Well, there is an area of my life where I am waiting for an answer from God, but not even remotely trying to listen for an answer from God. Does that count?
“Very truly I tell you Pharisees, anyone who does not enter the sheep pen by the gate, but climbs in by some other way, is a thief and a robber. The one who enters by the gate is the shepherd of the sheep. The gatekeeper opens the gate for him, and the sheep listen to his voice. He calls his own sheep by name and leads them out. When he has brought out all his own, he goes on ahead of them, and his sheep follow him because they know his voice. But they will never follow a stranger; in fact, they will run away from him because they do not recognize a stranger’s voice.” – John 10:1-5
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