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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae

Life is good

I am exhausted. This week has been way too much! I need bed now. For hours. I had something really intelligent I was going to share tonight. I do not remember it. I will say that fasting seems to be continually cleansing my heart of the critical spirit I used to carry with me in my mornings.

This afternoon I was really fired up for God. Have you ever gotten righteously angry? Well, I was righteously angry against evil. Sometimes I can be so narcissistic. I forget everyone is in pain. It is always easier to empathize with the people who have not hurt me than with people who have. Those people who hurt me ought to know better. They ought to suffer for what they have done. But the people who hurt other people because they themselves were hurting, I can empathize with them.

This morning I had some time with God where I was just blown away by my response to a biblical concept. I really could not believe I actually believed it. I hope He just keeps changing my heart. In this world of paradoxes, I was so surprised to find I believed the paradox of the Bible. It was a huge celebration and praise for me. So many times I have to consciously cling to the truths in the Bible that do not seem obvious to the naked temporal eye.

My constant celebration these last few days has been the distance I have come since Easter when I went suicidal for the first time in years. I think it has been a couple weeks now since I have even contemplated how good cutting would feel. God is indeed a mighty God. I will praise Him in the storm!!!

The name of the LORD is a fortified tower; the righteous run to it and are safe. – Proverbs 18:10


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