What an overwhelming day! I am not sure why it was overwhelming, but it was. My counselor checked in with me to see how I was doing. I told her and gave her direction for prayer. I am afraid of tomorrow. I suppose I will have to do it afraid or let God take away my fear.
I have taken in an incredible amount of information today as I spent a fair amount of time researching writing. Then I started to work on redoing my blog to include a weekly article that is less personal and more universal in truth.
I also had a lot of internal conversation about people and myself and ministry that I am not sure I am able to share here while keeping anonymity. I will say God worked a miracle in me today. Slowly, very slowly, He is preparing me for His service. Some day I will be of more use to Him. I look forward to losing my critical spirit and selfishness. I really would like to get rid of more of it. All of it.
Tonight as I walked home from the homeless shelter, I thought about how I am known and loved. My counselor has been encouraging me lately by telling me how I am learning this. Pointing me toward the goal, encouraging me in my panic. As I walked home tonight, I knew it was true. I am known and loved. One of my favorite places to be loved is the homeless shelter. Every now and again I am tempted to make it my home. Surely, the homeless must have a special place in His heart. They certainly have a special place in mine.
Then one of the teachers of religious law said to him, “Teacher, I will follow you wherever you go.”
But Jesus replied, “Foxes have dens to live in, and birds have nests, but the Son of Mane has no place even to lay his head.” – Matthew 8:19-20