If I ever complain about my life, just slap me. And when I complain about that, slap me again. I had a pretty challenging day. I came off a spiritual high last night, so it made sense today is when I cried and processed and had God give me more revelations. I had a conversation with someone who has known me my whole life. I gained incredible insight into a portion of one of my current struggles through the conversation. It is so helpful to have someone be able to see what happened five years ago on the outside of me. I had “homework” to do after the call. What I discovered is so humbling I haven’t been able to share it with anyone yet. I did share in group tonight that I had a revelation though.
I love that God never settles in my life. He keeps pushing me to new growth. Not because He does not love me the way I am, but because He wants me to experience so much more of His love.
Tonight I hope the hard part of following Him goes away for just a little while. I just need a break. Is that too much to ask?
I wonder if He is preparing me for a time in my life when I will need to be more faithful. I love that God taught me tenacity right before I moved to Jersey. Well, I might have had some before it, and it just multiplied a bunch. Here I am, Lord, use me.
Yeah, I mean that. Why not?
To all who mourn in Israel, he will give a crown of beauty for ashes, a joyous blessing instead of mourning, festive praise instead of despair. In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks that the LORD has planted for his own glory. – Isaiah 61:3
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