Thursday – 11:02 pm
It was one of those days when I rerealized my life is not boring. In fact, I am quite sure it will never be boring again. So much has happened over the last few months. God is giving me such amazing opportunities.
I told my story this morning. I do not know how i feel about it. Everybody doesn’t know yet, but everyone knows. It is sort of weird. No changing what I said. No rewording it. No retracting anything. Only a wish that the first half of it was not true. Only some sorrow that it is. Only greater sorrow that if everyone I knew heard it, I would cower and hide instead of stand up for myself.
Earlier today I was talking with a friend on the phone, I was a bit overwhelmed by the position God has placed me in. I began to confess to her something I think more regularly, “I do not belong doing this”. Somewhere in that I stopped midsentence and tried for a rephrasing, “Well, I know God has called me to it, but I really have no business.” The longer I tried to rephrase, the lamer my sentences ended. The more stupid I sounded to my own ears.
So I know I am right where God has called me to be. I know I am doing what God has called me to do. It is absolutely beyond my comprehension that He would decide to have me get to be a part of what He is doing here. I am living right between a dream and a miracle. I really feel highly privileged to work with the amazing people in my life.
A while back I came to the conclusion there is no vertical movement in the kingdom of God. I still do not think there is. I just can’t believe the incredible group of leaders God is placing all around me. I am privileged to serve them, to train them and to lead them. I am in absolute awe of the blessings God has placed on my life. To think I used to run away from this.
A single day in your courts is better than a thousand anywhere else! I would rather be a gatekeeper in the house of my God than live the good life in the homes of the wicked. – Psalm 84:10
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