What an amazing day! I truly enjoyed today. It started off rough with anxiety. I journaled in quiet time this morning about how afraid I was feeling. I complained about how hard it was to come off the week of x time. “Perhaps by habit I feel anxious and misplaced,” I complained. I eventually moved on to forcing the prayer, “Come into my life, break down every idol and cast out every foe.” But I acknowledged, my entire being wants this except my feelings. Emotions are good for so many things, but can be such a hindrance to giving everything to Him.
I finished my time with Him this morning reading John 13-16. It took away my anxiety. Jesus last words to His disciples before He gave His life for me comfort me every time.
Then I walked some dogs and went and had dinner with some friends. It was absolutely amazing. I have become a different person since deciding to trust/treat Christians like nonChristians over the last week. It is good to have walls down and have fun and just be. It is good to pray naturally and with joy for so many people whom I used to having to pray for with less joy and love in my heart. I did not know I could have such a truly joyful holiday. Did it start off a bit hard? Yes, but that happens on normal days, too.
It has been quite awhile since my last nightmare. I am not entirely sure I have had a nightmare since complaining about having them back on this blog. It is odd how confessing things takes them away.
This is the day the LORD has made. We will rejoice and be glad in it. – Psalm 118:24
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