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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae

I need a break

My brain is about ready to break. In college I had a class on critical thinking. Overall, it was an easy class to pass; my brain just hurt from thinking at the end of each test! That is how I feel about my life right now. There is so much analytical thinking going on in my life. My brain just hurts. I think my first real thinking break is going to come in September. I better restart taking full sabbaths before then. Next Saturday there is no way I am even doing fun writing on my sabbath. I better party. I definitely need to party!

I have had a few interesting revelations lately. One today and one a few days ago. I am not ready to share them here. One is unsharable here anyway, but my counselor and I will have a bit extra to talk about next week.

I have not had “x time” in forever. Just in case you are unfamiliar with the term that is the amount of time I need alone with God in my day to live my life as a sane person to my fullest potential. It all started one night about six or eight months ago when I looked in the mirror (actual mirror not the Bible) and said, “You know if I wanted to live an actually productive life, I would have to spend ….. with God a day.” X time is that …… And yes, I do not really want to tell you how much time that is!

I think if I want to have productive writing in the next two months, I better go back to x time! That time with God when the only task at hand is to enjoy His presence. After writing this, I plan on watching another episode on Hulu. How stupid is that? I have run myself far enough into the ground that it feels really hard to reconnect. I hate it when I do that. I am too emotionally drained for getting recharged to not feel like work. Man, I hate that!

Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” – Matthew 11:28


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