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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae

I am a girl

So I woke up quite ill today. During my quiet time I sounded a little bit like a whiny little six-year-old. “But, God, I don’t want to get up.” It was said in that super sick, whiny, sobby voice. Anyways, I did proceed to get out of bed by 7, since I first woke up at 4:30 anyway. Then I got ready for church really slowly.

At the retreat, they asked us for take-aways at the end. I did not answer there because one of my biggest take aways was a bit problematic for a large group of people. I am a girl. I am a girl with other girls. When it comes to groups of people, I fit in with the girls. I am, indeed, a girl.

So this morning as I got ready for my day super slowly, I walked around the apartment, saying, “I am a girl.” like it was a crazy huge revelation. For some reason I spent a considerable amount of time turning in circles. It did occur to me if I was a dog, I would have gone ahead and laid down because dogs generally lay down after turning in circles three times.

I had a bit of a hard time emotionally when I first woke up imagining going to church today. Besides still being sick, the idea of seeing all those people from yesterday and all the guys, too, scared me. But I really was mostly emotionally stable by noon when I went. CR was good. It was fun to tell my girls about my emotional breakdown.

“Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me. My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. You know the way to the place where I am going.” – John 14:1-4


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