Saturday, May 24, 2014
I am in Mexico. It is the best thing ever. I was so excited this morning I could not sit still. Literally. One of my coolest friends told me if I got anymore excited, she was going to have to hurt me. Clearly not a morning person. :) But I did manage to calm down to only wiggling my toes and eventually took a nap on the airplane.
It is really emotional to be here after being gone nearly a year. This is my third trip to the orphanage. I am such a different person than last year. I think it is interesting that coming here brings out so many insecurities in me. I want to talk right. I want the children to like me and I want them to remember me. Somewhere in all my qualms, I am trying to remind myself that this trip is not about me or even how much fun the children have playing with me. It is bigger than that. It is about equipping the adults who run the orphanage to be able to best lead and train the children to love God and affect change for Him in their community.
As I go to sleep tonight, I am going to have to concentrate on trusting God and trusting He has a reason for me to be here, trusting He wants me to help these people love these children. Trusting He will open doors.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11