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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae

Growing

His grace is enough for me. I like my God very, very much. I am a fan of His. I am enjoying my life so much today. I am really looking forward to enjoying this week. I am so glad it is a holiday tomorrow. I am just really happy. I have a lot of cool people in my life. I don’t know if I have anything else to say. I did have a good share time in group at CR. I randomly rattled about various parts of my spiritual growth.

There is one big part of my life I want to entirely avoid right now. I can tell it really come out in how I interact in sharing with people across the board – whether it is in dinner group or CR or anywhere else. I want to entirely avoid anything of depth because anything of depth would really challenge me in this area. Frankly I want to just pretend it is not there. Yes, I just said that. I want to live in denial.

But I don’t want to live in denial, so I keep going to CR and counseling.

I feel like the girl in 50 First Dates; but continuing to write out what the ultimate reality is every morning has been extremely helpful, especially when I acknowledge my conflicting feelings over the part of my life I am trying to avoid. Apparently I am not very good at avoiding it because I wake up every morning and face the reality about it. Then if I want to function well during the day, I remind myself a few times a day. It has helped me quit misplacing my anger all over the place.

And I am starting a new step study, so all my tags are going to go back to step 1. Hurray! Yikes!

May your Kingdom come soon. May your will be done on earth, as it is in heaven. – Matthew 6:10

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