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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae

Free and priceless

Such a good day, especially when compared to yesterday. I did pretty well throughout the day with forgiveness. Very good compared to a month ago, but I did struggle more than the last few days. Sometimes it is hard to not pick pain up again. After step study tonight, I have a lot of peace. I do really enjoy peace.

I had X time again today. Life must be stabilizing a little bit for me. I feel like I have much less to say on my daily posts the last few days.

I did use the verse about not giving the devil a foothold to keep my mind from going in the wrong direction. Frankly sometimes I do not understand recovery. (Usually I don’t understand recovery.) How did it take me this many years to learn how to just not go there mentally? No devil, I am not going to think about the pain and hurt that person caused. I will process and release it, but I will not meditate on it. Goodbye now!

I did have a miniature weirdish breakdown today. I am not sure what to do with it, but I tried to work through the shaking with God. I did calm down, but I am not sure it was from processing the cause of the breakdown. It may have been more from repressing the cause. In any case, counseling is tomorrow, and she is always very helpful for such things.

Tonight my spirit feels very calm and submitted to His will. I love it when I am just calm and content. Spending a few years at CR learning to let go: free and priceless!

How I praise the Lord that you are concerned about me again. I know you have always been concerned for me, but you didn’t have the chance to help me. Not that I was ever in need, for I have learned how to be content with whatever I have. I know how to live on almost nothing or with everything. I have learned the secret of living in every situation, whether it is with a full stomach or empty, with plenty or little. For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength. Even so, you have done well to share with me in my present difficulty. – Philippians 4:10-14

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