Today was a very interesting day. I once again focused on resting, which means I was only productive for like six hours. I am digging into some hard stuff in counseling. I think the next few months of my life are going to be really hard emotionally and spiritually. Today the spiritual battle in my life seemed so real I could hear the swords clanging in my somewhat active imagination. Phew, but my life is not boring.
The really cool part about today is when I got home from counseling I was starving. I ate. Then I worked a little while. Then I decided to go to the grocery store, and I bought myself a special treat, and I came home and made the treat. It was so awesome. It makes me so glad.
At some point today I realized I could keep letting the devil get all up in my head about the eating, or I could just eat. I could decide to move on. I realized I could keep getting hung up on what someone did to hurt me awhile back, or I could forgive. I focused my evening quiet time just on being quiet and receiving love. I remembered all the times certain people had loved me. I accepted the love that I rejected when they first offered it. I accepted God’s love, too. Please, God, help me receive the healing power of Your love.
Paul said to run the race; I seem to be a baby stepper.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11
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