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  • Writer's pictureLaura Kae

For the joy of the Lord is my strength

I just plain do not want to go to bed right now. I want to stay up and celebrate. I want to sing and make music. I woke up at like 3:15 this morning too joyful to sleep. It took me like an hour to fall back to sleep. I did not stress super hard over falling back to sleep. I just relaxed into it. It was amazing; I was a little bit groggy when I woke up this morning though! But I am still happy!

I have been continuing to work through my repressed anger. I felt quite like putting a fist through the wall at some point today. I am so glad the joy of the Lord is my strength! I am glad I am actually feeling the anger. I am not really enjoying it, since I did not even know I was so mad. I am remembering that I was mad a while back at God. Right now I cannot remember why, but I did earlier today. Somewhere on this blog, I know I have been mad at Him for leading me here.

I love being here. Ah, yes! It was the whole conversation about the men in the fiery furnace versus being in the belly of the whale. Yeah, I did not know I was still mad about it. I am working on repenting. I am really thankful God sees fit to use me anywhere. I am angry about how hard here is. I am not angry about how good here is. I am living my wildest dream. I am angry that good is hard.

I am thankful that hard is not as hard as it used to be!

Now I am going to take a nap. Goodnight!

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” – John 16:33


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