I had a hard time fighting with bitterness this morning. I have been trying to stop using the phrase “made me”. You know like so-and-so did this and it “made me” feel or “made me” do. I am trying to change the way I say things to take responsibility for my reactions. Like so-and-so did this and then I felt or then I chose to feel or then I did… It is helping me feel less like a victim. There have been times when I have been a victim, but now is not one of those times.
I think a part of me would like to not take responsibility for my actions. It is much easier to say “made me” than “I chose to…” But when I change that part of what I am saying, it changes my whole story and totally shifts the blame from the other person.
Anyways, I really just took the day to do nothing except chores and watch Cheers on Netflix. I am trying to get back on to my feet emotionally. Hurray!
How can you think of saying, ‘Friend, let me help you get rid of that speck in your eye,’ when you can’t see past the log in your own eye? Hypocrite! First get rid of the log in your own eye; then you will see well enough to deal with the speck in your friend’s eye. – Luke 6:42