I am so excited about going to bed! I must have been quite excited about it all day because about noon I asked myself what I could do to make myself quit hating myself over a mistake I have made recently and the answer to that question was sleep. So I have managed to get in a few catnaps, but not too many. Now I am going to take a long nap. I never sleep as good during the winter it seems. I am not entirely sure why.
I am doing both emotionally better and worse at the same time. My time with God is balancing me, but I am feeling unbalanced in human relationships right now. I may be giving too much and getting too little. I am working on finding a mentor or two to counteract that. Who knows when that will happen though.
A positive part of today is that I am noticing as I continue to catch up on my God time, I am spending more time praying for other people. I remember noticing that a long time ago when I was caught up on God time as well. There is something really good about spending enough time with God that it can become less about me.
My life is good. Now to find the fine line of balance…
I am challenging myself once again with whether I believe God will really take care of me if I seek His kingdom first. If I do, there are more steps of faith to take. He gives and takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord!
At this, Job got up and tore his robe and shaved his head. Then he fell to the ground in worship and said: “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked I will depart. The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised.” – Job 1:20-21
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