I have been having this long drawn out conversation with God about extravagant love this week. I need some in my life. I receive a lot of it. I need to learn to give it. I love how the three steps of healing Dan Allender talks about in Wounded Heart are honesty, repentance and bold love. I have been contemplating bold love.
If love were merely a feeling I felt, I would be an expert lover. I have all kinds of love locked away in me. I am just not always good at demonstrating it. Today as I was praying about it, I remembered the verse about “forgetting what lies behind” and “pressing on towards the goal”.
I thought about it awhile. I eventually came to the conclusion that if I want to love extravagantly and unconditionally, I will always have to forget what lies behind and press on to the goal of bold love. Otherwise, I find I get too caught up focusing on my rather enormous mistakes or the mistakes of the people I am loving. If I want all of us to be able to change, I have to focus on our futures and not our pasts. If I want to love extravagantly, I will have to forget what happened yesterday and focus on loving extravagantly today.
I was confronted recently by someone about my lack of bold love. And yes, that is why I have been thinking about it so much. I do want to change badly. I do not want my story to be that I never learned how to move past my own pain to actually love another unreservedly. Ah, without reservation. That is the other phrase that has been rattling around in my head these days.
I don’t mean to say that I have already achieved these things or that I have already reached perfection. But I press on to possess that perfection for which Christ Jesus first possessed me. No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead, I press on to reach the end of the race and receive the heavenly prize for which God, through Christ Jesus, is calling us. – Philippians 3:12-14